Birthday Edition: Dear Younger Me
Woop woop! Today is my birthday! It’s my Kobe year and so much has happened for me in these past few months! God has blessed me with two of my closest friends. He has answered my prayers with school and has opened doors for me to dive deeper into ministry!
Chapter 23 was a hard one to say the least! I have lost so many loved ones, made MANY bad decisions, and felt like I was at such a low point in my life SCARED that there was NO WAY OUT!!
Recently, I was confronted with a question that brought up so many emotions and really had me thinking!
“ What Advice would you give to your younger self?”
LET ME TELL YOU!!
That question was so deep and hard to answer. My first response was “I’m not sure”, but once I started to really reflect on what I have been through and what God has brought me out of, my answer immediately changed!
If I was to give advice to my younger self I would say, First and foremost Trust God and then Trust the Process! Many times I found myself questioning where I was in life! Let’s be honest... I found myself very often questioning why did I get dealt the bad hand of cards... even more so why I couldn’t have the perfect family like I saw my friends had?!
I then started questioning....
Am I smart enough to be around the friends that I have, am I smart enough to speak in front of people, am I deep enough to lead people the way God wants me to, am I pretty enough to meet my future husband, am I even worth loving, am I even important, do I even have a purpose?!!
So many questions that was surrounded by so much hurt and carried so much baggage within each question, some more than others!
TRUST GOD!
He has made you in his image. He has made you unique, if he wanted there to be two of the same person he would have made that happen. He has placed specific gifts inside you that are just for you and your ministry!
Although it may seem unclear as far as where you fit in with ministry, stay prayed up and ask God to give you direction for your next steps.
TRUST THE PROCESS!!
Things are not going to happen instantly! As a matter of fact God is going to place a vision in your heart for what you are to do to uplift the Kingdom of God, but that will be years in the making. It will happen but in Gods timing not your own!
Also, it’s ok to be vulnerable. It’s ok to express how you feel in specific situations. Although everyone around might hold in their feelings don’t! It leads to so much anxiety and so much stress. It will leave you feeling like you are alone in this world which is just lies that the devil tries to use against us when he fears what we see becoming! He uses that when he knows our love for God is growing at such a fast rate he cannot keep up!
Lastly, let your friends in!! You’ve been praying for friends that you can do life with and be on fire for God with! Why would you want to compare them to the people of your past! God is going to give you friends that will pray for you when you don’t even realize it. He will give you those same friends who can tell when something isn’t right. He will give you those same friends that you can just release all your baggage that you’ve been carrying for 23 years and they will take it and love you through it!!
They understand, they love you anyhow, he loves you anyhow, and they will be YOUR PEOPLE!!
I’m able to tell you this because I am walking through this! Everyday is a journey! It’s all worth it in the end!!
I love you and God loves you!! Always remember that!!
